Last week went a really long way to making me feel that I'm not as clever as I thought I was. Not very clever at all, in fact, and shockingly computer illiterate.
The second task to be done in Blender was to create a puddle in a street. We had a set of instructions to follow and tutor Chris Hughes showed us how easy it is (if you know what you're doing) by creating a perfectly authentic-looking puddle with fabulous reflections in about 10 minutes. The thing is to get an image of a paved or cobbled street taken from above, then a nice reflective image of a street at night above to wrap around it, and finally to create the puddle in photoshop with black patches on the street, then to add reflectivity. It was a bit of a torturous ordeal, but in the end I created this:
Not a perfect representation of a puddle, but I'm very proud of it considering the
hard work that went in to creating it!
Meanwhile back in the graphics class, we'd reached the stage of actually getting our designs turned into posters via photoshop. And once again my computer illiteracy let me down.
By the end of the day my fellow students were producing wonderful designs and I was struggling with the most basic photoshop commands and had so many confusing layers to my unfinished and messy-looking poster that I felt quite miserable. I left the class promising tutor Chris Headleand that I would download 'gimp' a free graphics programme similar to photoshop.
Gimp proved to be just as nonsensical to me, but I battled on with my ten-year-old son advising me and was half-way to completing a poster when I lost my layers toolbar and was unable to get it back whatever I tried so in the end gave it up til the next lesson.
The next week we had the fun task of turning images of ourselves taken in the TV studio against the green screen into classic fairy tale film posters. Again I struggled, but stayed at college late, determined to at least accomplish this task. At last I was getting the hang of photoshop, little by little. When I discovered I could download a 30 day free trial there was no stopping me. I was awake til 3am working on this:
Snow White starring Liz Hutchinson with a fabulous body - (are those silicon breasts?!)
Looking back on the things I have produced this week it doesn't seem so bad, but I've been in tears of frustration because of my own inadequacies, and I've felt like throwing in the towel and abandoning ship more than ever before. It seems I'm an awfully slow learner. I'm not sure if that's my maturity or the fact that I've never been really fast at learning new things, and not getting my head around the technology has been so very frustrating.
But I haven't given up, and I'm trying really hard not to get stressed or upset , because getting emotional is definitely a hindrance to learning,